Why...

Why is it that after so long you just keep finding ways to hurt me,

Is there ever going to be a time where you will just let it stray?

Ive over and over begged for the day when you would just love me without conditions

and make more of an attempt to keep the promises you have made.

I have always forgiven and for that I am wrong,

I should have made a decision that would have been better in the long run.

My heart aches daily because you are not the one.

Not the one you said you were,

not the one you said you would be.

There isnt a doubt in my mind that you really dont know how to love me.

You have said that you do and I believe that at some point you may have,

but something inside me says that the feelings now are just bad.

Not a real love like feeling left for me inside

as far as I can tell that part of you hides.

Deep within you I know there will always be a place

when you think of me you will be able to see my face.

You always say you want to work things out and that you will try.

But just days later it isnt you that is the one who cries.

I am tired of crying about little petty things.

Life is supposed to be a beautiful and an experience from which you learn things.

The past several years I have learned one thing for sure,

I dont need you to complete me I complete myself

my heart has no regret for the time we have had

but I am over dwelling on what should be I am going after it instead.