Wish List

i want to sleep
a thousand miles away
from home
your touch an echo of itself
inside my head.

i want to fall away from earth
forget to breathe.

i want to wrap my skin in earth and sun and
bury myself up to my eyes
in night
and breathe like ice.

i want to waste the time
i've wasted
on my life.

i want to climb to some tall mountain
in a range that no one knows
unmapped, uncharted, lonely
uninhabited
alone.

i want to burn the dregs of everything
hold the ashes in my hands
and walk away.

i want to walk to where you are
five feet away, oblivious to where i am
strip away your faith in us
and make you show me how
to understand.