Yes, Christmas CAN Be a Sad Time Also

I actually have two sad memories of the Christmas Holiday Season. The first one came almost 36 years ago when my 25 year old cousin was working on a shed and was using a chain saw. He lit a cigar not realizing that he had gasoline on his clothing. The match ignited his clothing burning it off and putting third degree burns on over 90 percent of his body. He did manage to walk back to my grandmother's house and survived for three days before passing away on Christmas day in 1973.

I still remember it like it was yesterday even though I was only five years old. My cousin was like a big brother to me and had already given me my Christmas gifts that year. He had bought me a guitar and a new pair of shoes. Although I was still a little too young to know exactly what was going on, I do remember I knew that I would never see my cousin again. I remember crying because of that fact. It seemed that for the next few years Christmas was not the same.

The second sad Christmas I remember was in 2004 when my mother-in-law passed away on December 18^th. Now unlike a lot of women, I loved my mother-in-law dearly. She was like my mother and she loved our little boy with all her heart. She had lung cancer and had survived for six years only to have the cancer come back and take her from us. Our little boy was only eleven months old at the time so he does not remember her.

I guess the worst part is that (I never met my father-in-law) my husband's father passed away December 6, 1998. So Christmas was already a hard time for the family.

I think what hurt me the most was the fact that I did not get to have my mother-in-law with me for very long. I only got to know her and lover her (here...I still love her though) for two years before she was taken. She was only 68 years young. We miss her so very much. We have pictures, of course, and are talking about her to our little boy now that he is old enough to understand. Although we do have good memories to share about her, we sure wish we could have her back.

I guess these two sad Christmas memories are the hardest to deal with. I never realized until I was sitting here writing this just how much I miss both of these people. And although words cannot bring them back it is wonderful to be able to "talk" about them and share them with all of you.

I hope everyone has a Wonderful and Happy Holiday Season. And I sure hope my cousin and mother-in-law know how much we love them.

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