Young Black Female

I am a strong young black female drawn into the temptaions of lust and love. Confused and lost on what the word L-O-V-E is. Drawn into the life of cheating, lying, and deceit. Watching ones around me question my life and if I care what happens. Jumping boy to boy trying to find something special only to find out there words and actions were lies and all they wanted was my precious beauty not told or heard of before from another nature but kept as one. Thinking about loves I used to have but scraed to turn back not because of fear of being hurt but the fear of hurting another heart. Your heart pours out tears of disgust knowing that you allowed these worldly things around you to turn into this heartless person, so I question am I a strong black female or another one destroyed by the fake words of I LOVE YOU coming out of ones mouth.